A window to the past

 For others I may seem to be the same individual but somewhere deep inside I knew that a part of me is lost.. I was trying to figure out what's it since months but I wasn't able to. I have tried meditation, music podcasts but nothing was touching the line, then one day I dropped my phone and picked one of my favourite book (hard paperback) . 

As I was diving deep down the passages I was witnessing a light at the end of the tunnel, like I was getting closer to myself. I was about to finish the book after six hours of continuous reading, at the last page I started crying like a kid, it was an avalanche of tears, this was not what I was expecting. I still don't know what it was, after completing the book I realised that now I am holding the hands of that part of me which I thought I lost.

It was not the book as I was not reading it for the first time, but then what was that outburst ? I am still not very clear but it could be the inner child in me who was fond of reading, but somewhere I was not giving her what she wanted, although I have tried reading on-screen pdf's but it was not gratifying enough. Revision is necessary when things start to blow-up, similarly with life too. When irregularities arise, go back in time and rescript the future. 

Sometimes we don't need others like motivational speakers these days, to tell us who we are or what should we  do or what are we missing. Sometimes what we need is simply a peaceful time with ourselves, also it's definitely not going to matter much to your professional or family life, but this feeling always remains within you, you may achieve everything but a sense of integrity within yourself can only be accomplished if you are capable enough to unite your inner self. So revise and rescript.

Written by a child in me...